For those of you who do not know what this is, it is the seed pod of the castor bean. The castor bean plant has tropical type leaves and grows 7 to 8 feet tall. Quite a beautiful plant. Do not be deceived by its beauty, the bean is very poisonous.
When I first started my blog in January of this year, I thought I would just be writing about dementia. After two years of caring for my brother with dementia I felt I had a lot to tell and perhaps I could help another caregiver. Most caregivers are in the midst of chaos, and so involved in the dementia process, they just blog to vent their frustrations. I have given advice to some overwhelmed caregivers who blog. I can only hope that advice helped them in some way.
Alas, after numerous posts on dementia I seemed to get more depressed with each post. I seemed to be reliving my stress, fatigue, sorrow, and several other emotions during my caregiver journey. So, I began to post happier posts for my own peace of mind.
I am still dealing with problems even after placing my brother in a nursing home. The responsibility is still mine to make decisions for the life of another human being. I love my brother dearly and I miss him so much. I never wanted to direct my brother’s life. Who does.
So, I am off to posts on traveling, country living, gardening, cooking, animals, enjoying life, or maybe even telling old jokes: “Why do ducks have web feet? To stomp out forest fires. Why do elephants have big feet? To stomp out burning ducks!” Ha
I cannot be upset or unhappy anymore, because I have a life to live and my brother’s life is disappearing. Dementia is the saddest thing I have dealt with in my entire life. I lost my mother to dementia, and I am losing all three of my siblings to this dreaded disease. So, let’s all pray that a cure will soon be found.