Happier Times Ahead

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For those of you who do not know what this is, it is the seed pod of the castor bean.  The castor bean plant has tropical type leaves and grows 7 to 8 feet tall.  Quite a beautiful plant. Do not be deceived by its beauty, the bean is very poisonous.

When I first started my blog in January of this year, I thought I would just be writing about dementia.  After two years of caring for my brother with dementia I felt I had a lot to tell and perhaps I could help another caregiver.  Most caregivers are in the midst of chaos, and so involved in the dementia process, they just blog to vent their frustrations.  I have given advice to some overwhelmed caregivers who blog.  I can only hope that advice helped them in some way.

Alas, after numerous posts on dementia I seemed to get more depressed with each post. I seemed to be reliving my stress, fatigue, sorrow, and several other emotions during my caregiver journey.  So, I began to post happier posts for my own peace of mind.

I am still dealing with problems even after placing my brother in a nursing home.  The responsibility is still mine to make decisions for the life of another human being.  I love my brother dearly and I miss him so much.  I never wanted to direct my brother’s life.  Who does.

So, I am off to posts on traveling, country living, gardening, cooking, animals, enjoying life, or maybe even telling old jokes:  “Why do ducks have web feet?  To stomp out forest fires. Why do elephants have big feet?  To stomp out burning ducks!” Ha

I cannot be upset or unhappy anymore, because I have a life to live and my brother’s life is disappearing. Dementia is the saddest thing I have dealt with in my entire life.  I lost my mother to dementia, and I am losing all three of my siblings to this dreaded disease. So, let’s all pray that a cure will soon be found.

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11 thoughts on “Happier Times Ahead

  1. It must be the hardest thing to have to place your brother in a nursing home. He is very lucky to have you make this impossible decision for his best interests. It looks like it is time to let yourself heal and I like your plans for your blog.
    I had no idea what this plant was. It looks really strange, with the blue leaves and pink fluffy spike balls. 🙂

  2. It is hard to place anyone in a nursing home. I would not have had the responsibility for my brother, but his business partner out West stole his assets and I had to go rescue him. Sad situation.

  3. Its great that you are helping other people, me included. If must be a huge relief to know he’s safe at least, cruel disease. Look forward to your future posts

  4. The trials and tribulations of life can drag a person down. Life slips away from you and you do not realize what is happening. I lost my joy for 3 years, but I am not going to let that happen anymore. Love your blog and your beautiful photographs.

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